Tuesday, April 26, 2005
Hodge Podge
Long time no blog. Well, we WERE enjoying the awesome 80 degree weather every day, until it decided to get cooler and rain for a couple of days. And THEN - it snowed! No accumulation, but really, snow??! Give me a break. It was finally warmer (if you can call 60 warm after being spoiled by 80!) yesterday, but it started raining again last night. How annoying is that?
Yesterday, I had my 14-week prenatal visit. I took Cameron with me, and Tony met us from work. We didn't wait long at all and the visit was nice and short. We saw my very favorite OB, Dr. Hensley, who delivered Cam. I guess I was feeling pretty dopey, because having Dr. H and Cam in the same room again made me feel all lovey and gooey inside. Hormones! I'm still measuring large, so I get my big ultrasound next visit, on May 23! Yay! The heartbeat was strong. Dr. H wrote me a prescription for an antibiotic to cure this problem I have...I have this swollen lymph node or gland or something on the side of my face, right in front of my ear. It's putting tons of pressure on my ear and making it feel like I have an earache. This happened last year, too, and the doctor said it was due to an infection somewhere on my head. Most probably a pimple. Which makes sense, since I can't seem to leave my blemishes alone. I really need to stop popping and picking. It's gross, but I just feel an overwhelming compulsion to do it. Ick.
We found out last week that Walter has a cataract on (or in?) his left eye. Like Tuesday, it started watering and looked bloodshot. Wednesday, it looked cloudy. We took him to the vet Thursday and he made the diagnosis. They did bloodworm to make sure nothing else was wrong with him and it came back fine. We visit the doggie eye doctor tomorrow afternoon to see what the extent of damage is and to check out his other eye. I don't think Walter is really affected by it at all. The vet said he's probably blind in his left eye, but I don't notice him walking into things or anything like that. I guess we'll see. We have to put eye "drops" in his eye twice a day to clear up/prevent infection. I say "drops" because it's not really liquid - but more like Neosporin. At first, it was really easy to give to him, but now it's a bit more difficult. He knows what's coming, so he closes his eye tight! Poor guy.
I think if it's not raining after Cam's nap, we'll go shopping. Mostly returning, but some shopping. And we need to get to the post office. I doubt we'll go, because it's supposed to rain and storm all afternoon. I just dislike running around in the rain if I don't have to. I'm kinda lazy....no, really!
As for not dining out as often...we've been good. Not great, but good. On a scale of 1-10 (ten being "we are really awesome and ate in each and every day!") I'd give us a 6.5. So better than average. Saturday night, we had a baby shower to go to, so Tony and I grabbed a quick bite at Skyline beforehand. Sunday, we had dinner at Amy's. Last night, we had tuna mac, green beans and biscuits at home. I can't really remember Friday or earlier! Tonight is coney night. Yeah, we're doing ok. I am craving a Big Mac, though (thanks, Julie)!
Oh, if you haven't checked this out, here's a little "site" we put together for the new baby: http://www.maddoxdirect.com/baby2/
Hope it's not raining where you are!
Yesterday, I had my 14-week prenatal visit. I took Cameron with me, and Tony met us from work. We didn't wait long at all and the visit was nice and short. We saw my very favorite OB, Dr. Hensley, who delivered Cam. I guess I was feeling pretty dopey, because having Dr. H and Cam in the same room again made me feel all lovey and gooey inside. Hormones! I'm still measuring large, so I get my big ultrasound next visit, on May 23! Yay! The heartbeat was strong. Dr. H wrote me a prescription for an antibiotic to cure this problem I have...I have this swollen lymph node or gland or something on the side of my face, right in front of my ear. It's putting tons of pressure on my ear and making it feel like I have an earache. This happened last year, too, and the doctor said it was due to an infection somewhere on my head. Most probably a pimple. Which makes sense, since I can't seem to leave my blemishes alone. I really need to stop popping and picking. It's gross, but I just feel an overwhelming compulsion to do it. Ick.
We found out last week that Walter has a cataract on (or in?) his left eye. Like Tuesday, it started watering and looked bloodshot. Wednesday, it looked cloudy. We took him to the vet Thursday and he made the diagnosis. They did bloodworm to make sure nothing else was wrong with him and it came back fine. We visit the doggie eye doctor tomorrow afternoon to see what the extent of damage is and to check out his other eye. I don't think Walter is really affected by it at all. The vet said he's probably blind in his left eye, but I don't notice him walking into things or anything like that. I guess we'll see. We have to put eye "drops" in his eye twice a day to clear up/prevent infection. I say "drops" because it's not really liquid - but more like Neosporin. At first, it was really easy to give to him, but now it's a bit more difficult. He knows what's coming, so he closes his eye tight! Poor guy.
I think if it's not raining after Cam's nap, we'll go shopping. Mostly returning, but some shopping. And we need to get to the post office. I doubt we'll go, because it's supposed to rain and storm all afternoon. I just dislike running around in the rain if I don't have to. I'm kinda lazy....no, really!
As for not dining out as often...we've been good. Not great, but good. On a scale of 1-10 (ten being "we are really awesome and ate in each and every day!") I'd give us a 6.5. So better than average. Saturday night, we had a baby shower to go to, so Tony and I grabbed a quick bite at Skyline beforehand. Sunday, we had dinner at Amy's. Last night, we had tuna mac, green beans and biscuits at home. I can't really remember Friday or earlier! Tonight is coney night. Yeah, we're doing ok. I am craving a Big Mac, though (thanks, Julie)!
Oh, if you haven't checked this out, here's a little "site" we put together for the new baby: http://www.maddoxdirect.com/baby2/
Hope it's not raining where you are!
Tuesday, April 19, 2005
Dinner Report & Oregon!
Listening to: nothing, since Cam stole my headphones and he's (hopefully) falling asleep in the next room, so I don't want to play music.
Reading: nothing, since I'm out of reading material (it bites).
Gestation update: 13 weeks, 5 days along; can I be feeling little kicks this early, or is it just gas?
OK, so we've done a decent job at not eating out as much. Thursday night, we had chili. Friday, we did frozen lasagna. Saturday, we had a grill out with Mom, Amy and Shawn - had bbq chicken, mashed pots, mixed veggies and macaroni salad. Sunday - hmmm, what did we do Sunday? Ah yes - we got Taco Bell for dinner. Bad, I know. But it cost like $5, so can you really yell at me for that one? At least we had breakfast and lunch at home. Now, before you say anything about Monday...let me just tell you that we ate out and it was planned. Well, you see, we had to drive up to Babies R Us, which is like 25-30 miles north. We have three baby showers to attend soon and needed to get gifts off the registries. So, we ate at Old Spaghetti Factory, since it is right in front of BRU. And then tonight is my monthly dinner with the girls at Applebee's. That won't be too much $$, since I'll probably order off the appetizer menu, and appetizers are half-price during happy hour! Then Wednesday - Friday are eat-in nights for sure. I think we are doing ok. Maybe not excellent, but I really feel that we're committed to eating in more and spending less.
My sister is moving to Portland, Oregon in July! Can you believe it? That's like a zillion miles away! She's moving with Shawn, who will be teaching ROTC at a college there for 3 years. Amy's going to study for her masters degree in Portland. Cameron is so into Amy, so I'm not quite sure what to do. On one hand, I want him to spend tons of time with her before she leaves, but on the other, should we just "wean" him from her so he's used to not seeing her as often? That just doesn't seem right though. He'll miss her and she'll miss the crap out of him, so I think seeing him bunches is the right thing to do... Of course, she'll come home to visit some, and hopefully we can go to Oregon for vacations and such. I'm sad to see her go, but am totally happy for her, too. She gets to get away from home and experience life in a different environment. It's something I've never gotten to do, so I kinda envy her. All I know is I'll have to take way more pictures of C-note (and the new baby, too) for maddoxdirect.com so she can watch him grow.
I needs me some macaroni salad, so I'll keep this one short. Check you later.
Reading: nothing, since I'm out of reading material (it bites).
Gestation update: 13 weeks, 5 days along; can I be feeling little kicks this early, or is it just gas?
OK, so we've done a decent job at not eating out as much. Thursday night, we had chili. Friday, we did frozen lasagna. Saturday, we had a grill out with Mom, Amy and Shawn - had bbq chicken, mashed pots, mixed veggies and macaroni salad. Sunday - hmmm, what did we do Sunday? Ah yes - we got Taco Bell for dinner. Bad, I know. But it cost like $5, so can you really yell at me for that one? At least we had breakfast and lunch at home. Now, before you say anything about Monday...let me just tell you that we ate out and it was planned. Well, you see, we had to drive up to Babies R Us, which is like 25-30 miles north. We have three baby showers to attend soon and needed to get gifts off the registries. So, we ate at Old Spaghetti Factory, since it is right in front of BRU. And then tonight is my monthly dinner with the girls at Applebee's. That won't be too much $$, since I'll probably order off the appetizer menu, and appetizers are half-price during happy hour! Then Wednesday - Friday are eat-in nights for sure. I think we are doing ok. Maybe not excellent, but I really feel that we're committed to eating in more and spending less.
My sister is moving to Portland, Oregon in July! Can you believe it? That's like a zillion miles away! She's moving with Shawn, who will be teaching ROTC at a college there for 3 years. Amy's going to study for her masters degree in Portland. Cameron is so into Amy, so I'm not quite sure what to do. On one hand, I want him to spend tons of time with her before she leaves, but on the other, should we just "wean" him from her so he's used to not seeing her as often? That just doesn't seem right though. He'll miss her and she'll miss the crap out of him, so I think seeing him bunches is the right thing to do... Of course, she'll come home to visit some, and hopefully we can go to Oregon for vacations and such. I'm sad to see her go, but am totally happy for her, too. She gets to get away from home and experience life in a different environment. It's something I've never gotten to do, so I kinda envy her. All I know is I'll have to take way more pictures of C-note (and the new baby, too) for maddoxdirect.com so she can watch him grow.
I needs me some macaroni salad, so I'll keep this one short. Check you later.
Thursday, April 14, 2005
Bad Me
Reading: Nothing! Finished Gone with the Wind. Need new reads!
Gestation update: 13 weeks today...not much new to report on
'Sup, homies? (Can I get an whiter?) I've been sort of anti-communication/anti-computer lately. Yeah, I go through the motions of reading and posting on message boards, but I'm not really into it. Haven't answered an email in quite a while. I guess I need to get back into the swing of things - otherwise people may think I've either a) dropped off the face of the Earth, or b) become very snobby and hermit-like! So, I shall begin to remedy my lack of social skills with this here blog entry.
Let's talk money. Man, since Cam came along and I quit working outside the home, our budget has been crap. I can't seem to make it work each pay period, no matter how much Tony brings home. Yeah, he got a raise in March (or was it February?), but that doesn't seem to matter. More money? More spending! We've really got to tighten the reins on that spending, and in a big way. I totally know what the problem is, and you probably do too, if you read my ramblings. It's eating out. I'm addicted to it. We spend way too much on dining out and we do it almost every night. Ridiculous. How can I stop this obsession? It's like a habit. I need to somehow make myself accountable for staying in and cooking. And it's not like I'd have to be the only chef (thank God). Tony is more than willing to prepare meals a lot of the time. I guess he's just kinda wimpy when I insist on eating at the Olive Garden. Inside, he's saying, "let's stay in...save money" but he always gives into me, because he wants to make me happy. I know that's how it is. I wish he'd put up a fight or something. I need some kind of guidance here. Tonight, we are having chili. We have all the ingredients for it (yay) and I have the ground chuck out thawing now. So there's no turning back. Can't waste thawed meat, right? I guess I'll have to start listing what we had for dinner each night here, so you guys can chastise me if/when I cave in and eat out. Well, more than twice weekly, anyway. Wouldn't you say dining out 2x a week is ok? Or ordering in one of those days? Is that reasonable?
I am really trying to be a better housekeeper, but there really isn't much to show for it. Just doing basic chores takes up most of my day (between playing with Cam, feeding him, reading - it's a must, showering & bathing Cam, that is). Seriously, doing a few loads of laundry, folding and hanging said laundry; loading, running, unloading the dishwasher; picking up toys a bazillion times a day; and maybe cleaning the kitchen counters takes up my whole day. So the living room doesn't get dusted or vacuumed. The bathroom doesn't get cleaned. None of the really visible stuff gets done. So it looks as if I've done nothing all day. It's discouraging. I guess you can say I'm in a slump about myself. I spend too much money eating out. I keep a dumpy house. Good Lord! I suck!
I need to get more organized, but no matter what advice friends give me, no matter what articles I read, I still suck! I think it must be something you are born with or not. And I'm definitely a not. Didn't get the organization gene. Keeping 'To Do' lists helps a little. But then I just get depressed when all the items aren't crossed off. I just lack the consistent drive to keep a nice house. One day, I'll be in cleaning/get stuff done mode. The next, I'll just feel like lounging around the house all day. I want my house to look nice (decent, anyway) all the time. Not just when we have company. Blah!
This blog entry is depressing! Sorry! Must stop now!
Gestation update: 13 weeks today...not much new to report on
'Sup, homies? (Can I get an whiter?) I've been sort of anti-communication/anti-computer lately. Yeah, I go through the motions of reading and posting on message boards, but I'm not really into it. Haven't answered an email in quite a while. I guess I need to get back into the swing of things - otherwise people may think I've either a) dropped off the face of the Earth, or b) become very snobby and hermit-like! So, I shall begin to remedy my lack of social skills with this here blog entry.
Let's talk money. Man, since Cam came along and I quit working outside the home, our budget has been crap. I can't seem to make it work each pay period, no matter how much Tony brings home. Yeah, he got a raise in March (or was it February?), but that doesn't seem to matter. More money? More spending! We've really got to tighten the reins on that spending, and in a big way. I totally know what the problem is, and you probably do too, if you read my ramblings. It's eating out. I'm addicted to it. We spend way too much on dining out and we do it almost every night. Ridiculous. How can I stop this obsession? It's like a habit. I need to somehow make myself accountable for staying in and cooking. And it's not like I'd have to be the only chef (thank God). Tony is more than willing to prepare meals a lot of the time. I guess he's just kinda wimpy when I insist on eating at the Olive Garden. Inside, he's saying, "let's stay in...save money" but he always gives into me, because he wants to make me happy. I know that's how it is. I wish he'd put up a fight or something. I need some kind of guidance here. Tonight, we are having chili. We have all the ingredients for it (yay) and I have the ground chuck out thawing now. So there's no turning back. Can't waste thawed meat, right? I guess I'll have to start listing what we had for dinner each night here, so you guys can chastise me if/when I cave in and eat out. Well, more than twice weekly, anyway. Wouldn't you say dining out 2x a week is ok? Or ordering in one of those days? Is that reasonable?
I am really trying to be a better housekeeper, but there really isn't much to show for it. Just doing basic chores takes up most of my day (between playing with Cam, feeding him, reading - it's a must, showering & bathing Cam, that is). Seriously, doing a few loads of laundry, folding and hanging said laundry; loading, running, unloading the dishwasher; picking up toys a bazillion times a day; and maybe cleaning the kitchen counters takes up my whole day. So the living room doesn't get dusted or vacuumed. The bathroom doesn't get cleaned. None of the really visible stuff gets done. So it looks as if I've done nothing all day. It's discouraging. I guess you can say I'm in a slump about myself. I spend too much money eating out. I keep a dumpy house. Good Lord! I suck!
I need to get more organized, but no matter what advice friends give me, no matter what articles I read, I still suck! I think it must be something you are born with or not. And I'm definitely a not. Didn't get the organization gene. Keeping 'To Do' lists helps a little. But then I just get depressed when all the items aren't crossed off. I just lack the consistent drive to keep a nice house. One day, I'll be in cleaning/get stuff done mode. The next, I'll just feel like lounging around the house all day. I want my house to look nice (decent, anyway) all the time. Not just when we have company. Blah!
This blog entry is depressing! Sorry! Must stop now!
Saturday, April 9, 2005
Can you guess who this is?
from the 'Call and Answer' section of Barnaked Ladies' blog site, where - obviously - they answer fan questions:
Can you please do me a favor? On future albums, can you eliminate the silent space between songs? You see, my 2-year-old gets really peeved when a song ends and he has to wait for the beginning of the next. P.S. he wants me to tell you that his favorite tune is "Everything Old Is New Again" - although I don't think he really gets the song's meaning, being 2 and all...
Asked by Melzer and answered by Steve on Saturday, April 9
No problem. In fact, next album, we're just going to play all the songs at the same time - it will seem shorter than usual, but a markedly richer listening experience. Why can't your kid just like One Week like the rest of them? Are you people weird?
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OK, so maybe Cam's not really 2, but it was easier than saying 21 months!
http://www.bnlblog.com/viewQ.asp
Can you please do me a favor? On future albums, can you eliminate the silent space between songs? You see, my 2-year-old gets really peeved when a song ends and he has to wait for the beginning of the next. P.S. he wants me to tell you that his favorite tune is "Everything Old Is New Again" - although I don't think he really gets the song's meaning, being 2 and all...
Asked by Melzer and answered by Steve on Saturday, April 9
No problem. In fact, next album, we're just going to play all the songs at the same time - it will seem shorter than usual, but a markedly richer listening experience. Why can't your kid just like One Week like the rest of them? Are you people weird?
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OK, so maybe Cam's not really 2, but it was easier than saying 21 months!
http://www.bnlblog.com/viewQ.asp
Saturday, in the park...
Listening to: someone mowing outside
Reading: Gone with the Wind (on page 872 of 1024)
Gestation update: 12 weeks, 2 days along; feeling pretty decent lately!
The beautiful weather continues. Today, Cameron and I are going to the park again, this time with Aunt Amy and Uncle Shawn. Then we plan to get something to eat. Tony will be missing out, since he's staying home to work on our bedroom closet. He's painting the inside of the closet, painting all the trim in the room and installing a new closet system for us. Right now, he's in there spackling the holes that the old system (if you can call it that) left behind.
Well, I've finally done it. I'm officially in maternity clothes. And at 12 weeks. Laugh if you will, but my belly is getting big. I guess those abdominal muscles really are shot to shit, because things have moved upward dramatically in the last week or so. Plus I have a lovely coating of fat to add to the bulk. So, my maternity clothes are all pretty big still and I'm constantly hiking my pants up. Most of my nice-weather tops are all pretty large, since I was really advanced in my pregnancy during the summer with Cam. I think I might buy a couple of smaller short-sleeved tops so I don't look quite so tent-y.
Ho-hum, not much to report on. I'm just waiting for Cam to fall asleep so I can sneak in there and get his hamper to do his laundry. He has no clean jeans to wear today. Not that I've been slacking in the housekeeping department lately, either. Yesterday, I kicked ass at housework. I did two loads of laundry (impressive for me), folded two loads of towels that have been sitting around in baskets, cleaned the kitchen and dining room, changed the sheet on Cam's bed and gave him a bath! That, my friend, is mighty productive for a slouch like me. I would totally do more laundry during the day if I had a main-floor laundry room. It's really hard to tromp up and down to and from the basement with Cam around. The basement is junky, unfinished and really very dangerous with all the flotsam lying about, so I don't feel safe taking Cam down there. And he really doesn't like me to leave him alone upstairs. So I try to do laundry during his naps and sometimes switch loads and hang stuff up from the dryer while he's in his pack-n-play. Except sometimes being in the pack-n-play doesn't make him very happy. Whine. One day, I will have a house with a convenient laundry room, I declare.
Enjoy your weekend!
Reading: Gone with the Wind (on page 872 of 1024)
Gestation update: 12 weeks, 2 days along; feeling pretty decent lately!
The beautiful weather continues. Today, Cameron and I are going to the park again, this time with Aunt Amy and Uncle Shawn. Then we plan to get something to eat. Tony will be missing out, since he's staying home to work on our bedroom closet. He's painting the inside of the closet, painting all the trim in the room and installing a new closet system for us. Right now, he's in there spackling the holes that the old system (if you can call it that) left behind.
Well, I've finally done it. I'm officially in maternity clothes. And at 12 weeks. Laugh if you will, but my belly is getting big. I guess those abdominal muscles really are shot to shit, because things have moved upward dramatically in the last week or so. Plus I have a lovely coating of fat to add to the bulk. So, my maternity clothes are all pretty big still and I'm constantly hiking my pants up. Most of my nice-weather tops are all pretty large, since I was really advanced in my pregnancy during the summer with Cam. I think I might buy a couple of smaller short-sleeved tops so I don't look quite so tent-y.
Ho-hum, not much to report on. I'm just waiting for Cam to fall asleep so I can sneak in there and get his hamper to do his laundry. He has no clean jeans to wear today. Not that I've been slacking in the housekeeping department lately, either. Yesterday, I kicked ass at housework. I did two loads of laundry (impressive for me), folded two loads of towels that have been sitting around in baskets, cleaned the kitchen and dining room, changed the sheet on Cam's bed and gave him a bath! That, my friend, is mighty productive for a slouch like me. I would totally do more laundry during the day if I had a main-floor laundry room. It's really hard to tromp up and down to and from the basement with Cam around. The basement is junky, unfinished and really very dangerous with all the flotsam lying about, so I don't feel safe taking Cam down there. And he really doesn't like me to leave him alone upstairs. So I try to do laundry during his naps and sometimes switch loads and hang stuff up from the dryer while he's in his pack-n-play. Except sometimes being in the pack-n-play doesn't make him very happy. Whine. One day, I will have a house with a convenient laundry room, I declare.
Enjoy your weekend!
Wednesday, April 6, 2005
Weather and songs and stuff
Listening to: where is my Stunt cd? Not in it's case...who is it that never puts the cds back where they belong? What a slob! Nope, it's not in the portable cd player, not in the cd rom drive...maybe it's in the living room cd player. Anyway, I put all the rest of the cds in their proper cases. Since I can't find Stunt, I'll listen to Born on a Pirate Ship instead (BNL, in case you haven't guessed). Wow! I need to shut up!
Reading: Gone with the Wind (more than 3/4 into it! It's kinda long)
I'm going to attempt to start a blog entry while Cam is awake. I'll bet you $6,000 that I'll be interrupted (several times!), though. I just figure if I don't do it while I'm thinking of it, it won't get done! Story of my life, really.
OK, so I just uploaded some pictures from my camera earlier and Cameron came in and tried to pull the USB cord out of the computer (he really likes that cord - he likes to take it for a walk around the house...you know, as if a dog is attached to it or something). I told him he had to wait until all the pictures were off the camera, and in that 30 seconds, he cried this horrible pitiful cry like I had just taken away his Baby! It was so sad! He's a sensitive guy. Speaking of pictures, I've been so crappy about taking shots lately. Call me lazy - I deserve it. Since I have a few on the computer now, though, I'll probably (hopefully) update Cam's photo album today.
The weather has been freaking rocking lately! It's been beautiful! Monday was at least 75 and yesterday was low 70s too. Awesome. Monday night, Tony, Cam, Hank, Walter and I all went for a walk around the neighborhood. All the boys had a blast. Cam did this excited panting thing the whole time (he's part dog, remember). Yesterday, C-note and I met Mom for lunch and then we went to the park for some playing. Cam hated the swings, but dug the climbing/sliding equipment. It was really windy, but so warm and Spring-y.
Oh, shhhhh. Here's my favorite song on the CD - When I Fall....ahh, that was nice. I really love this song. I have multiple interpretations of it. What do you think?
I look straight in the window, try not to look below
Pretend I'm not up here, try counting sheep
But the sheep seem to shower off this office tower
It's 9.8 straight down, I can't stop my knees.
I wish I could fly
From this building From this wall
And if I should try
Would you catch me if I fall?
My hands clench the squeegee, my secular rosary
Hang on to your wallet, hang on to your rings
Can't look below me, or something might throw me
Curse at the windstorms that October brings
I look in the boardroom; a modern pharaoh's tomb
I'd gladly swap places, if they care to dive
They're lined up at the window, peer down into limbo
They're frightened of jumping, in case they survive
I wish I could step from this scaffold
Onto soft green pastures, shopping malls, or bed
With my family and my pastor and my grandfather who's Dead
I wish I could fly
From this building From this wall
And if I should try
Would you catch me if I fall?
Look straight in the mirror, watch it come clearer
I look like a painter, behind all the grease
But painting's creating, and I'm just erasing
A crystal-clear canvas is my masterpiece
I wish I could fly
From this building From this wall
And if I should try
Would you catch me if I fall?
I guess the obvious interpretation is that this guy is contemplating suicide, but I feel - most of the time, anyway - that this guy is dealing with insomnia. He just can't sleep and these are all the thoughts that are running through his mind. My other thought is that he's just isolated...he is trapped by his own insecurities and he is about to take a leap of faith and change his life. Simple interpretations, I know. Although I like to find the meaning in lyrics, I also don't want to overanalyze them and pick them apart. That's what college was for. I don't want to lose the simple enjoyment of listening to a beautiful song by killing myself over what it's intended meaning is. Anyway. Enough of that!
I'm getting too many interruptions now, so I think I'll catch you next time! Have a nice day! It's sunny here, so I know I'll enjoy mine!
Reading: Gone with the Wind (more than 3/4 into it! It's kinda long)
I'm going to attempt to start a blog entry while Cam is awake. I'll bet you $6,000 that I'll be interrupted (several times!), though. I just figure if I don't do it while I'm thinking of it, it won't get done! Story of my life, really.
OK, so I just uploaded some pictures from my camera earlier and Cameron came in and tried to pull the USB cord out of the computer (he really likes that cord - he likes to take it for a walk around the house...you know, as if a dog is attached to it or something). I told him he had to wait until all the pictures were off the camera, and in that 30 seconds, he cried this horrible pitiful cry like I had just taken away his Baby! It was so sad! He's a sensitive guy. Speaking of pictures, I've been so crappy about taking shots lately. Call me lazy - I deserve it. Since I have a few on the computer now, though, I'll probably (hopefully) update Cam's photo album today.
The weather has been freaking rocking lately! It's been beautiful! Monday was at least 75 and yesterday was low 70s too. Awesome. Monday night, Tony, Cam, Hank, Walter and I all went for a walk around the neighborhood. All the boys had a blast. Cam did this excited panting thing the whole time (he's part dog, remember). Yesterday, C-note and I met Mom for lunch and then we went to the park for some playing. Cam hated the swings, but dug the climbing/sliding equipment. It was really windy, but so warm and Spring-y.
Oh, shhhhh. Here's my favorite song on the CD - When I Fall....ahh, that was nice. I really love this song. I have multiple interpretations of it. What do you think?
I look straight in the window, try not to look below
Pretend I'm not up here, try counting sheep
But the sheep seem to shower off this office tower
It's 9.8 straight down, I can't stop my knees.
I wish I could fly
From this building From this wall
And if I should try
Would you catch me if I fall?
My hands clench the squeegee, my secular rosary
Hang on to your wallet, hang on to your rings
Can't look below me, or something might throw me
Curse at the windstorms that October brings
I look in the boardroom; a modern pharaoh's tomb
I'd gladly swap places, if they care to dive
They're lined up at the window, peer down into limbo
They're frightened of jumping, in case they survive
I wish I could step from this scaffold
Onto soft green pastures, shopping malls, or bed
With my family and my pastor and my grandfather who's Dead
I wish I could fly
From this building From this wall
And if I should try
Would you catch me if I fall?
Look straight in the mirror, watch it come clearer
I look like a painter, behind all the grease
But painting's creating, and I'm just erasing
A crystal-clear canvas is my masterpiece
I wish I could fly
From this building From this wall
And if I should try
Would you catch me if I fall?
I guess the obvious interpretation is that this guy is contemplating suicide, but I feel - most of the time, anyway - that this guy is dealing with insomnia. He just can't sleep and these are all the thoughts that are running through his mind. My other thought is that he's just isolated...he is trapped by his own insecurities and he is about to take a leap of faith and change his life. Simple interpretations, I know. Although I like to find the meaning in lyrics, I also don't want to overanalyze them and pick them apart. That's what college was for. I don't want to lose the simple enjoyment of listening to a beautiful song by killing myself over what it's intended meaning is. Anyway. Enough of that!
I'm getting too many interruptions now, so I think I'll catch you next time! Have a nice day! It's sunny here, so I know I'll enjoy mine!
Sorry about the ear pressure thing - sounds painful. Hopefully it will go away soon. And, again, I am glad you had a good OB appt. I can't wait to find out if Cam is getting a little brother or sister!