Been thinking of past mistakes and much more recent mistakes in my life. Mistakes are mistakes. Choices are choices. They are just things. It's not the thing itself that matters...it's what you do - how you react - as a result. Do you learn from a mistake? Do you understand the mistake, its implications, its consequences? Do you glean some sort of lesson from that you've realized? Do you take that understanding/knowledge/enlightenment and move on to make better choices?
Because that's what I think is important. Good people do dumb things. Dumb things don't make people bad. Good people can become gooder if they can forgive themselves for dumb things. You can't change the past, but you can be in control of your future choices. You need to be aware that feeling dumb based on dumb behavior is ok - to an extent...then you need to let go.
All I know is I'm capable of making better choices. I know I'm still me, even with all the crap choices I've made in my past. Dwelling on a mistake's crappiness doesn't accomplish anything positive or useful. Beating myself up for a poor choice just makes me beaten up. I'm still an ok girl...an ok girl who makes all kinds of choices, and who learns volumes from the mistakes of her past past and more recent past.
Today, I am appreciating in earnest the good things in my life. My amazing kids. My understanding, giving, non-judging friends. My loyal, loving, caring family. And me. Myself. Cause I'm still me, regardless of dumb choices.
2 comments:
Listen. If you need a boost in self-confidence by making your past poor decisions seem minor, lets trade notes. ;-)
It's a wonder I'm allowed in the general population.
Oh dear...no. My last poor decision was the worst of my life. Very, very, very, very not good.
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