Little thoughts about little things

- I clipped my fingernails just before.  They were getting long and unshaped and sharp.
- Finally, I think my digestive system is getting back to normal.  It's been a rough couple of weeks with the stress, and my body decided to go on strike.
- I'm very happy to be hanging out with my kids tonight at my old house.  Absence makes the heart grow fonder...gonna really miss this place.
- Today, we had our first showing since listing the house.  Can't wait to hear the feedback.
- Had a normal conversation with the ex on the phone the other night.  First one in ages.  Made me feel sad.  Not an "I miss this" sad, but a "sucks that this can never be normal again" sad.
- I am selfish.
- I might be a loner.
- I might be semi-social.
- There is a girl at work who has a very nice voice. I like her tone.  But then again, it kind of annoys me after a while?
- I don't understand why people wear jeans that are too long, and the bottoms are falling apart and ripped to shreds and they walk on their trailing bits.
- Sometimes I wish I had more self-control and self-discipline.
- When I was heavier, I thought of  myself as thin.  Now that I am "regular," I think of myself as fat. I am always caught off guard when I catch my reflection in a window or elevator door.
- I like my name.
- Sometimes, I think I could be a vegetarian. Because I love all sorts of non-meat foods.  But I love meats, as well, so that thought never gets far.
- I do not like keeping secrets.
- I am jealous of my sister's body.
- I'm pretty certain most people think I'm smarter than I really am.
- Do you ever feel something that you intended to avoid at a certain point in time, and then wonder why life can be so cruel that you unintentionally feel something potentially right at the wrong time?
- Do you like to smile? I think I might like smiling, but it doesn't come easily for me.
- One time, there was this little boy who liked his dad so much more than he liked his mom that any affection he showed toward her seemed forced.  Then the tide slowly changed.  He still liked his dad tons, but he also liked his mom just as much and started to openly and freely love on her.  The mom loves his hugs and each one of his special hugs feels like a million regular hugs.
- How can anyone drink instant coffee?  My mom prefers the stuff.
- There's something about the Summer night sky that is so comforting to me.  The stars, the moon, the gray/blue darkness with the fading orangeness dropping low.  Then there are those crickets, and frogs, and gazillions of other bugs and creatures singing to me.  And the neighbor's sprinkler, missing most of his yard and watering the street...
- I have always prided myself on not being a jealous person.  But I am.  I'm envious of so much.  I'm envious of my friends without kids.  I'm envious of my friends who are content with their kid-centered lives.  I'm envious of those who don't obsess, who don't pick their skin, who don't clench their jaws, who don't need medication to make their neurons fire and connect correctly, who don't have oily yet itchy skin, who have pleasant voices, who like to take care of others, who are prolific writers, who have long hair, who have important jobs, who love what they do, who work out regularly, who like to run, who like pie, who live in their own houses/apartments, who have fathers, who are quick and witty, who are creative, who read regularly, who are cultured, who are patient, who aren't so freaking jealous of the traits/lives of others!
- I have another Lady Gaga song in my head.  Inspired by Mel Gibson.
- I love to read blogs.
- I love thunderstorms.  I got this love from my mom.
- I wish the people in my life liked to hug more.
- I really don't care if you don't like the music I like.
- I really don't care if you like the way I write.
- I have to put the corresponding earbud in the corresponding ear, or I won't feel right.
- I refuse to listen to dark, sad songs tonight.  I am, however, entertaining watching a dark, disturbing movie tonight.
- I have a gift card to use at a department store.  I want to buy undereye concealer, but feel the card would be more wisely used toward a pair of pants for work.  Hm. Decisions, decisions.
- I still wish I worked in a library.
- When I get my life back together (it's getting there, I think?) should I go back to school to get my master's?
- I need more bluegrass music in my life.
- I'd like to learn to play ukulele or banjo or bass guitar.
- I wonder if I will ever feel "grown up."
- My hair is in pigtails.
- I have a love/hate relationship with carpeting.
- In turn, I have a love/hate relationship with hardwood.
- I wonder if the perfect flooring for me exists?
- I used to be anti-leather, where car interiors are concerned.  Now it's my preference.
- I like my Droid just fine, but I have the feeling I'd be just as happy with a BlackBerry.
- The more I learn about my new job, the more I miss my old job at CLife.
- Listen, I really wanted to go to the Butterfly Show here in town, but no one showed any interest in going with me.  Why didn't I just go by myself?  Why?  I have no problem with doing stuff alone?  I had two whole months to go, but didn't. And now I regret.
- Want. Pedicure.
- If I don't get some Japanese food in the near future, I might strangle someone.
- I never exaggerate.
- Keystrokes > mouse clicks.
- The Alt key is your friend.
- What do you think your friends say about you? I don't mean behind your back.  I mean, how do the friends you choose to hang with reflect on you?
- Do you think a cyberfriend can equal a physicalfriend?
- My ipod never plays my favorite tune -  like ever - but it just came on!  It shall be the Song of the Day!
- How can a non-math person love statistics so much?
- How can a person like me have three cool, amazing children?  They are so smart and full of spunk and personality.  They are amazing.  Wow.
- I still haven't had a gin and tonic in ages.  Just saying.
- Limes are special.
- I'm currently burning a candle.  Crisp Linen.  It's not bad. Though, generally I prefer more fruity scents or earthy/nature ones.  A scent I die for is almond.  Love it.  Love.
- This just feels like a good place to end it.  :)  Cheers.

But wait! Song of the Day!  Shout Out Louds - The Comeback  (clicky linky...embedding disabled...boo)

Good song for you to hear