Basically I've done that a lot recently. I struggle with challenging myself, I think. Stepping outside of safe and comfortable...being brave on my own accord, and not because I'm being forced to. It would be easy just to do what I'm told, to not have to make the decision to branch out and do hard stuff on my own. Or would it? I don't know? I don't have anyone to tell me what to do, so it's up to me. Even if I did have someone to direct me, that stubborn inner me would likely pop out and yell, "don't tell me what to fucking do!"
And so, I'm trying new things, taking new approaches. Little bit. Not a whole ton. I'm completely unsure of most everything, but I'm not going to let it stop me. I'm going to keep trying until I get it right, or at least get it better. Or become confident. At which point I will be back to comfortable and feel safe all over again. Then what?
Life is confusing!
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