Resolve

I don't like making New Year's resolutions.  Everybody knows they are mostly forgotten after, like, three weeks.  I don't want to set lofty goals and track my progress.  I don't want to make expectations and set myself up for failure.  However, Day One of 2011 is a nice time to think about what could make life more enjoyable.  Or what could improve and enhance one's being.  Here, I think I'll just do a New Year's Brainstorm List.  Thoughts For a Fresh Year:

Sit-ups would do much to improve unfit, flabby gut...as well as strengthen my core.

Buckling down and figuring out what work tasks take priority over others would make me feel better about my new job.  And would likely boost productivity.

Packing lunch 3/5 days a week would be healthier than raiding the vending machine.  And would save $$ when co-workers offer to make a Chipotle run. 

Water, get in my mouth more often.

Keep buying Marc Johns prints, because they are awesome.  Hang a "collection" of them in my living room, because that would be neat.

Burning candles more often would make me feel warm and fuzzy more often.  And would make the shack smell good.

Own my decisions.  Know that not all decisions will be the right ones, and move on afterward.

Stop being a motherfuckin' door mat when it comes to the ex.  I spend way too much time agonizing over how to act around him, or what would be fair to him.  I have many moments of strength and assertiveness, but always fall back into the dreamy thought that we can be fair and reasonable and flexible and friend-ish.  It ain't gonna work.  It just isn't.  Hike up your big girl pants and make demands that will benefit only the kids and you, girl.  Stop expecting the best out of someone who obviously has made you last on his list of people who matter.

Be more responsible fiscally.  Budget.  Seek assistance.  Take advantage of programs that will benefit me at this time of my life.

Enjoy stuff without overanalyzing stuff.  Just be, and let it flow. 

Be an accepting, low-key mom.  Absorb the kids. 

Get a gosh darn haircut, already!  Sheesh.

And, finally, pick up that camera and capture things, people, moments.  It feeds me, it energizes me, it is a release for me.