Saturday is for win

So, I've had the best day! It started out crappily. I woke up late. I was driving to a very important class that I couldn't be late for. I was driving the ex's car. On the interstate, it just lost power. I was able to get to the side of the road. Oh wait, have I told you? No I haven't. The ex and I have been having a heated custody battle...over my van. He took my van. Under the guise of "getting an estimate for work needing to be done" and then refused to return it. Kind of like a trade where one of the parties wasn't notified. I was stuck with his POS Chevy Cavalier. So, I called him...told him what happened...was called selfish.
..demanded my van back... Results? I missed my very important class, but got my van back. Drove to class location, gave my phone number to cute boy from class who wears his pants too low. Drove to old house and retrieved more items. Drove home. Home is my new apartment, and I really feel like it's home now. How cool is that? Anyway...

I have my van back! Never thought I'd be so happy to be driving a minivan. But I am.

Then, my sister and I went to dinner tonight and stuffed ourselves silly. Then we got pedicures. Then we shopped. Great evening with my best friend ever. I love her so much and am so lucky to have her.

Now, I'm home, relaxing. And struggling to stay connected to the internet I'm stealing from my one non-secure neighbor. I am trying to shop online for internet and possibly cable. But the going is slow. The connection is weak. I don't want the extraordinary expense of internet/cable, but I really require the entertainment. Otherwise, I'll spend all of my free time on my balcony, sucking down cigarettes and drinking wine. Cause that's what you do on the balcony.

Also, I need a couch. A cheap one.

I need to get this stuff now, because I am filing for bankruptcy very soon. Yes, that is how financially fucked up things are. Have I ever told you never to get married? If it's not too late, please take my advice. If you are already married, or really want to not listen to my marriage advice, please do this: make yourself financially independent. Plan for shit to go south. Just in case, cause you really never know. Avoid my path.

All that crap said, I really feel good about myself and life. Look, I have a job. I contribute to something. I have awesome friends and relationships. I have my own place, in a fantastic community that matches my personality. I'm starting to feel fulfilled...I'm on my way up! I've made awesome new friends who are helping me to be me. Things are perfect for where I am right now. In the future? I might require more, but for now...things are just right, and I'm actually happy. Happy! How awesome is that?

I've learned a ton about myself lately. I'm totally a people person, and I'm okay with that. In the past, my insecurities have made me uncomfortable with that label. But you know what? People will either accept me for who I am or they won't. And I'm not going to change the way I am or my outlook on life to suit others. Or to fit an ideal version of who I should be. It's very liberating to accept yourself...or to begin to accept yourself. Honestly, I've never felt so good about my brain, my body, my personality...me.

Sounds selfish or narcissistic? So be it. So be it.