Releasing the guilt

OK, here's the deal. I'm frustrated, so I'm going to type this, not edit it, post it and then head out for a major walk.

I'm tired. I'm tired of worrying about what people think of me. Not everyone is going to like me, and that's fine. Why should I be upset if someone has an awful opinion of me when they don't even know me anyway? Seriously, I spend hours contemplating this stuff, and it's a waste of my time. If I make a mistake, I'm sorry. I'm not perfect. I'll apologize or try to fix it and move on. If I say something stupid, as I'm apt to do, it happens. I'm through with dwelling on the consequences and how my every action impacts everyone else.

If you think I'm inappropriate, fine. If you think I'm a jerk, fine. I'm sorry if I've indirectly hurt you. But you know what? It's not my intent to hurt anyone at all. I hate drama, I hate games. What others feel is how they feel. I can't control it, I can't even affect it, so why do I spend so much time worrying about it?

I'm just finished. Yes, it makes me feel like an awful person to be so cold. But I just have to. Otherwise, I'm going to spend my whole life an a wound-up ball of worry.

P.S. On a lighter note: Anyway - I'm not kidding, either - more then 1/2 the stuff I worry about is unfounded! Yes, I'm that ignorant!