OK, not feeling very good about myself right now. Because I'm a moron. I waited too long to refill my prescription for the Cymbalta, and I've missed a day. I feel a little weird, but not too bad. The big physical stuff will happen tomorrow. Unfortunately, I've missed days before, so I speak from experience.
Anyway, what makes me really feel badly is how effing stupid I am. I've had a whole week to fix this. I should have called the doc, made an appointment, at least asked them to call in a refill until I could come in. I have to do a "medicine check," which is kinda a waste of time, where I go in and say, "heck yeah, these pills make me feel fabulous! Plz give me more?" And the doc can observe my state of being and know that I'm not a freak who wants to deal antidepressants or misuse them somehow...how do you misuse antidepressants? But, I didn't call. I am stupid and lazy.
I tried to refill the script anyway Friday...pharmacy can call the doctor's office and get approval to fill, blah, blah, blah. No approval by Saturday. Ugh. I took my last two pills Saturday, which means no meds for today. Which means I'll feel it tomorrow. And tomorrow's a bad day to be not on top of things. I have an attorney appointment and the realtor is coming tomorrow.
Do you know what missing a day is like? Usually, that same day - later - I start to feel numb. Like literally...my face will start to feel numb. Or my hands. It's freaky. (happily, I am missing out on the numb feeling today. maybe that's good) Then the next day, I start feeling all irrational. Unhappy...bad-dayish. I start to wonder, why am I having such a bad day? Why is everything effing bugging me so much today? And why is my head aching like this? Then I realize - duh, idiot...you forgot to take your medicine yesterday. Then I take it, and feel better in a few hours.
I just really hope I can get it filled early tomorrow. I feel like a fool for neglecting this. I'm stupid, and it's no one's fault but my own.
p.s. I think i'd still be in a state of heart-meltyness if it weren't for this stupidity.
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Do you have any omega 3's? You can take 3 in the morning and add 2 when you feel off. They will help with the withdrawal till you fix up your rx with the doc. I have a husband who gets "brain zaps" and work for a Neuropsychologist.It's a habit of mine to read her stuff. Also, do some vigorous type of workout. Endorphins help, too.
http://www.cymbaltawithdrawal.com/index.php/topic/557-awesome-omega-3-info/
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