Life is short.
I'm sad this is the path my life has taken. When I married T, I had no doubt that it would be forever. Never did I imagine he'd end up cringing when I laughed. Never did I imagine he'd so easily give up on what was so important. Never did I imagine he'd be happier without his family - with someone else.
The whole situation makes me sad and regretful for what will never be. It's the loss of a dream. The plan that failed. It's big stuff. It makes me sad, but now I don't want that dream anymore, either. It's not an ideal thing for our family to be "broken," but it's the best thing. The kids deserve happy parents. T deserves what will make him happy. I know I deserve to be happy.
I'm not unhappy...but I'm not bursting with happiness, either. I'm getting there. I still get angry about the logistics and about how the kids are affected. About how lifestyle is about to change. But I also get excited about the future - about the possibilities: future relationships, the happiness I'll experience with my kiddos, my friends, my family, and hopefully others.
Life is way too short to be unhappy and angry and regretful all the time. I realize it's fine to have those feelings for moments...even for a day. Can't ignore them, or they'll totally take over - and likely at the worst time. But overall, I'm prepared and anxious to move forward. To be happy. To have fabulous days. To enjoy, savor, feel life.
I'm ready to roll. Life is short.
Oh, I am young, but I have aged
Waited long to seize the day
All things said and plenty done
Life is short
Could this be the day I've waited for?
Oh, I am young, but I have a past
Traveled far to find the start
Yes I am scared and I've been burned
But life is short.
Could this be the day I've waited for?
- Life Is Short by Butterfly Boucher
1 comment:
"Just keep swimming. Just keep swimming. Just keep swimming, swimming, swimming." ;-)
Post a Comment