Thursday, January 14, 2010

Wounds

Oh goodness.  Where should I begin?  I'll tell a story. 

Girl meets Boy.  Girl and Boy get to know one another, fall in love, move in together.  Girl and Boy get married, start a family.  Girl has problems with depression.  Boy has problems with communication.  Girl and Boy fall into a bit of a rut.  Girl thinks it's a stage, Boy apparently thinks it's a sign.  A sign to run...far, far away.  Girl thinks it's all her fault.  Boy says as much.  Girl busts her booty to try to get depression under control, to be the best Girl she can, to "win" Boy back.  Girl does not succeed, and learns to accept the situation and even becomes at peace with life.  In the meantime - or sometime sooner, likely - Boy falls in love (or lust).  Not with Girl.  Eventually, Girl discovers this secret. Girl isn't so much shocked as much as she is disgusted.  Girl reads some really intimate, pukey stuff on Boy's phone.  Girl loses further respect for Boy and for his new Partner in Lust, whom Girl knows.  Girl can't believe she actually liked Lusty Partner and the whole situation makes Girl want to vomit and punch walls.  But Girl has dignity.  Unlike Boy and Lusty Partner. 

It's as if you have a wound.  And the wound is healing.  But then, as it's starting to look and feel pretty darn good, someone comes along and pours a shaker full of salt in it and then uses their elbow to spread it around

7 comments:

Adrian said...

Sorry Mel. It's a sad tale, but a common one. You'll pull through this with no scars at all, I'm sure. You already sound optimistic, as you should be. We're thinking of you always. Stay strong.

Genevieve said...

I love you, Mel! You have so many people who are behind you 100%. I can only imagine what it's like to be walking in your shoes right now. Arm yourself if need be. Get your ducks in a row, so to speak.
Boy is a royal asshole.
Girl is a shining star.

Jenny said...

I'm sorry, Mel.I agree with Gen, you have so much support, lean on your friends and you will get through this.

I have walked in your shoes and it is a sickening feeling. BUT, having been through that, I can say I came out stronger and more sure of myself and my integrity on the other side.((hugs))

dawn said...

Keep your head high Mel. You are awesome and boy, well, he is not awesome. Keep up in the direction you are going because it seems like you are getting better and stronger.

(((hugs)))

Claralee said...

I'm with Gen,
Boy is complete wank-bag
Girl deserves none of this.

Can't believe you knew her. Some people. Just. Fucking. Suck.

Love you!
ps Gen is also right about ducks and arming. Gather what you need, you don't deserve to come out of this any worse of than you already are. He made choices...

Melanie said...

I hate so bad that you know her. I've started typing out a few things here, but they are probably too harsh, but you know how we all feel and how much we love you & the kids.

Debbie said...

Girl is a rockstar. Boy-- well, I don't even think boy deserves to be commented on.

I love you Melzer. I hope you know that. We'll help you through anyway we can. <3